I did somthing Today

Today I did somthing.
I swallowed my pride and said I was sorry.
I admitted I was wrong.
I feel so much better and a little worse.
I gave up today.
I admitted defeat to a more just cause.

I recognised a cut. . .
put a bandaid on it. . .
And I will let time do it's work
It doesnt hurt so much anymore
but I'm afraid I'll have a scar.
It will never go away but in time will fade.

I feel much better and my cuts are healing well.

- Have Faith

I Dunno

I don't think anyone reads this anymore

I'll stop posting for a while see if I get some feedback

ciao

Chandra's Message:

Walk Straight for 15 steps and then turn right . . . think about your life.


Well today i payed attention to the message today as usual. I take pride in listening to my mentors. I turned a corner and walked 15 steps and counted them aloud 1...2...3 . . .

and I then turned right, looked up and saw a dear friend of mine. I've found purpose.


-Have faith

It's compicated. . .

T'was a yes or no question

and I spent an hour finding out why

but the original question was never really answered


It wasn't that complicated

Finished the test

Done in my acedemic Science class. Test was today, we had one week to cover the physics unit of motion and vector related stuff. We now have one week to finish the weather unit and then we have our exams.

I hate this class, and that's unlike me to hate somthing. It's not because of the teacher or the students its the material that gets me. An endless procession of papers and notes. He could keep me going on this stuff for so long. I'll be much older when I finish. Another thing that gets to me is that i don't realize any situation where i'll ever have to actually use what I'm learning except for on the exam and meybe to help my kid with homework later on in life. Other then that I can't see it comine in useful any time soon and I don't think it will. No dice. I figure it to be a little pointless at times. I hope it's all usful one day. I wish I had somthing better to do.

Biography

I don't think anyone would read a biography of my life. Some might envy me but most wouldn't . . .or at least I hope they wouldn't.

A life full of ups and downs. . . about even but latly it's been all downs with the occasional up to make it bearable. A bad time for me but with only me to blame.

To blame somone else is human nature. I fell more human more 'down to earth' than I have in a long time. It just keeps going down. I'm sinking and being buried by the weight of my guilt. It push myself up to only have somone pile one more shovel full of emotional dirt in my face.

The harder I try to get out the worse I feel and the deeper I sink.

Karma

Well I can feel it coming. . . Karma is gunna get me in a few days or weeks. I dont know how but I did somthing wrong and I'm gunna pat for it. Mind you I don't yet know what I did wrong but I'm sure somone will let me know in the loudest and most agrivating and hurtful way possible. And I probliobly deserve it.

-Accultus

Waiting for the bus

I waited for the bus. . .
. . .and It missed me

So I got a ride . . .
. . .and it was mad at me

took a cab home. . .
. . . had to pay him

crashed through the intersection. . .
. . . I won't have to pay him anymore

I look up . . .
. . . and I see a bus

. . . right befor I close my eyes. . .

The Second Day

Evening of the second day or the 5th year after 2000 and I got hit by an arrow.

It's not much fun really it's such a pain and everyone wants to know how I got it.

This arrow will be the death of me



-Have Faith